left over panda

sometimes, i feel like the left over friend. like i'm really just there for when people get really bored, and don't have anything else to do, so they call me. i'm never anyone's first pick anymore, and it makes me sad sometimes, when everyone has plans, and i'm at home, sitting alone, watching tv or studying. until, i realized, that two of the most amazing people i know feel the same way about me, and that they were my left over friends. i don't feel that way about them, and i really hope they don't think that anymore, but, i really believe that we have an amazing friendship that had to go on pause for a few months. until, i was needed, actually needed this weekend and today, and it felt so amazing. i spent time with two people who love me, and care about me, and i realized, that though i don't really have too many close friends, there are the select few who cannot under any cercumstance, be replaced or looked over. I love my girls, and I know that we will be friends for a life time to come!!! they make my life so much better, and so much more tolerable, that i just never want to leave their side.